Today, my mind is a mess. Perhaps you intended this record that there's always seize the whole mind and my time. Really, I really want to erase all of that memories. Did you know? I don't know what to do, when I really want you there, beside me or when you're really not care about me. Repeatedly, I tried to be patient and wait.. Would you really change? Or am I being turned into what you want? We always like this, debates and disagreements. Your understanding is not my understanding. And my understanding can't always be your understanding. If I could choose, I choose to never care about you. During this time, as far as I can, I always try to muffle it. Always try to understand about all the attitudes, wishes and thoughts. But it turns out, you don't look at all my intention and effort. You always see what I say. You know I'm lying. Is that what you do about people who've you got with difficulty?
What's the matter?
I always try to end it all. But you always managed to poison my mind. You never feel guilty, you never know with all my wishes. Even I never thought that you could leave me all alone down the street at night. Whereas I really want you at that time. You also never want my absence when I really felt lonely. Or have you forgotten how to grateful? But that's not what I want. I just want to be appreciated by you. I just want you to always compliment me. Maybe it was reasonable, because only that can make me smile when it all falls apart.
Or maybe I'm not lucky like you?
Before and or after we ended, many times I wanted to confirm myself that this was the last and I should be. But why? You ruin everything. I'm good, but you go around. I'm bad, and you seemed to be benign. I really really tired. I thought tormented, above all we have ever passed. Thank you for your kindness, and also for what you do for me. It turns out, that we never really get what we want..
What's the matter?
I always try to end it all. But you always managed to poison my mind. You never feel guilty, you never know with all my wishes. Even I never thought that you could leave me all alone down the street at night. Whereas I really want you at that time. You also never want my absence when I really felt lonely. Or have you forgotten how to grateful? But that's not what I want. I just want to be appreciated by you. I just want you to always compliment me. Maybe it was reasonable, because only that can make me smile when it all falls apart.
Or maybe I'm not lucky like you?
Before and or after we ended, many times I wanted to confirm myself that this was the last and I should be. But why? You ruin everything. I'm good, but you go around. I'm bad, and you seemed to be benign. I really really tired. I thought tormented, above all we have ever passed. Thank you for your kindness, and also for what you do for me. It turns out, that we never really get what we want..
I always look forward and try this will be the last for you.
Look at this, this smile's for you :)
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